Good Habit/Bad Habit

I don't have a lot of good habits. But one of my few good habits is keeping a daily journal. It began on December 9, 1997, the first day of my LDS mission. I thought it was a good time to start writing in a daily journal (not a diary) and it was. Since then I have kept that daily journal writing on even the busiest of days including the first day of my marriage and the day Henry was born. As a matter of fact, you could probably count the days I have missed on the fingers of your hands (had to catch a train, sick, forgot).

HOWEVER, now comes the bad habit. Occasionally I nod off watching TV late at night and when I wake up to go into the bedroom I realize I had forgotten to write in my journal. I'll grab my book and pen and scribble a few thoughts about that day down and while I am writing the words make perfect sense, but when I read them later...well, it usually gets weird. I think this is happening more often now that Henry has arrived, you know, the little guy interrupts good sleep and all. Check out a few of my recent awesome journal entries.

5 Feb 09
This sucks [illegible] really with me. Man, I'm frustrated. I'll be back as I get older. The End! [writing 'The End!' is not weird, it is how I end every entry]

6 Feb 09
Man it is early morning of 7 [illegible] but well want last month. School is the same [I am not in school] and work is fun but time consuming with little pay [I never complain about my pay, considering my level of experience I do quite well]. The End!

7 Feb 09
I'm here with a patient at the hospital [I have never spent the night at a hospital with a patient]...With us didn't get the edge in the drive home in time. The End!

[Those were a few bad days]

21 Feb 09
Man, I'm sleepy. OK, we went to NASA today [we really did, we live a mile from NASA and have season passes] which was fun but as usual I'm sad I am not an astronaut. Other than that life is going. The End!

14 JanMar 09
Going to the me [illegible]. It'll keep or [illegible] from fears in and it comes real as is not ick an very much of the ago? The End!

20 May 09
Weird, how did they not know. Alright, so my body looks [illegible] good. I don't know if they'd ask. The End!

Boy! Looking back on those entries two things come to mind, first I am ashamed then I have a few questions.

1. What did I write? More importantly what was going on in my subconscious mind? Please, enlighten me if you can.

2. If my entries look like these on occasion can I still count daily journal writing as a good habit? I mean other than the 3 days in a row I only do this 1-2 times a month.

3. Why is it I can always muster up enough of a sober mind to finish my entry with my trademark conclusion 'The End!' but the rest of the entry is gibberish? Habit? Dedication? Luck?

So, this is a bit about one of my only good habits, impressed or what?